I agreed with this, but I also began to feel the "need" for something more in my life. I was about 20 years old, I guess, married and pregnant with my first child when I decided to find some things out for myself. I went to the small library in town and checked out the only two books they had on Paganism and witchcraft. I took them home--not really knowing enough about close mindedness at the time to realize I probably should not just have left them laying around for prying eyes to see.
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I was young and dumb and I allowed this woman to intimidate and scare me. I returned the books unread to the library the next day and I spent the next 13 years trying to be a good Christian wife and mother and ended up completely losing myself in the process.
I ended up divorcing my first husband after only a year because he was extremely psychologically abusive. Thankfully, I have my beautiful daughter to show for that hellish year, though. Later I met a very nice man who I should have just stayed friends with, but married him anyway when my daughter was 3 years old. That lasted about 3 years before we mutually called it quits and went out separate ways. Then in '99 I married a Christian man I had worked with for 6 years. We went through the whole pre-marriage Christian counseling and were faithful churchgoers. Poor guy didn't have a clue what he was getting into.
I was 33 years old when I realized I was on the wrong path and I needed to make some changes. I knew what path I wanted to be on but I have to admit, I was still a little scared. Was I really opening myself and my family up to evil? Was I going to go to hell? Christian dogma is very difficult to get out from under. I just couldn't get the ideas out of my head, though. What had begun to call to me 13 years earlier was now demanding my attention.
My children now know what I am and the path that I walk and I am here if they ever want to talk or have questions or if they ever want to explore it. But, I still agree with my mom's idea that their faith is their own and I know that they will have to find their own way. As for the rest of my family, they know as well and are actually very open to it. My mom has asked me for house cleansing spells (for negative energy) and I got her a deck of Tarot cards for Christmas. She is quite intuitive. My grandmother even got me some witchy books and a journal for Christmas.